Nostalgia

Today was weird. All around strange. Firstly, last week it was 0 degrees a and rarely got over 10 during the day. Today I woke up to a 70 degree day. It was filled with sunshine; absolutely gorgeous. Well this started me off feeling good and bad at the same time..if that makes sense. I felt fabulous, and it brought back old memories. I guess you could say I quickly grew nostalgic with the familiar smells and temperatures. Basketball practice, only two hours instead of three thankfully, seemed to last four hours! I felt exhausted and like I could truly die. I air balled my last foul shot of the day..it was bad. I had NO ENERGY. I'm so sick of having this feeling. After practice, I came home, showered, and fell asleep on the couch. I was woken up by my cousins all coming in with the kids screaming and carrying on. As soon as I woke up, my mom needed me to bring her something. After my nap, being outside had me with that same "this feels great now, but it sucks, because I know it's going to be gone by tomorrow" feeling. I drove aroud Fairmont a little, and took the back way over Ice's Run to my Dad's house. That's when it really hit me. Driving over the old road like Daddy used to take us all the time. Ironically, as soon as I got back, my sister wanted us to go on a walk out that way with her (as she had been in bed all day yesterday with a fever of 101.4 and puking her guts up all day. My family has been dropping like dead flies since Christmas...one by one with this virus. I haven't gotten it yet, but out of the 20 in my family, my mom and I are the only ones that haven't gotten it yet..so I'm anticipating. ) Anyway...so I don't know how to explain this feeling...it feels so good and hurts so bad at the same time. I hate it. Really, truly, and honestly, I want nothing more than to be happy and somewhat normal. But, I can't even explain how I'm feeling, so it will be a long hard battle. I'm half asleep as I have been up watching television all night (a strange concept as I haven't watch TV in probably two years). Now I am very tired and down. I've been listening to my personal selection of Christian music tonight. I'm going to turn off the television and fall asleep to it tonight so that I can get up and go to church in the morning. I'm so excited because my little sister is going with me for once. Now, if I can get the rest of the family to follow along..